SOMETIMES IT'S JUST GOOD TO CRY
After work yesterday, I was driving to my parents' house to pay them a visit and I decided to call my girlfriend again who just lost her father suddenly this past weekend. She's away in the East Coast with her family and I've had her on my mind every day since I got the news. We spoke and I must say, she sounded good. She's being so strong and I admire her for that. We planned on having dinner as soon as she got back.
When I got to my parents' house, I got a call from my eldest sister on my cell phone. She was having one of those moments...one of those moments when the thought that her husband has a cancerous brain tumor is almost unbearable to handle. She was crying. She's scared. I wished more than anything that I could find the right words to tell her to make all her fears and pain go away...but I know I can't do that. So for the most part, I tried to just listen and let her cry. When we hung up, I had to hold it together because I didn't want my mom to know she was upset because that just depresses her.
On my way home, I was very depressed. Not that I don't truly feel in my heart that my dear brother-in-law WILL make it through this battle, but I just felt like crying. I hadn't done that in a while. I was sad that my brother-in-law has to go through this, I was sad that my sister and their 2 kids have to see him go through this, I was sad that my sister is scared, I was sad that while my husband I are perhaps planning on a weekend in Vegas and a week in Hawaii this year, this stupid cancer is probably the only thing on my sisters mind...and it's just NOT fair. I was sad and so I cried on my way home. My husband called me during my drive and I told him why I was crying. And just like I let my sister cry, he let me cry and just listened.
It felt good to cry.
5 comments:
Now I'm crying for you and your family...it's not freakin' fair!
I'm behind on my reading and commenting this week, but I caught a minute to check blogs and here I am.
I'm glad you were there for your sister, glad your husband was there for you, and glad you have people in your life who you trust enough to cry with like that. I had a good cry in front of a couple of friends last week, and it was really helpful.
Your family is in my thoughts, as always.
It is so tough to go through these things in life... it's tough when it happens to us and it's tough when it happens to people we love. Just keep the faith, you are in my thoughts. Hugs.
I don't know why growing up, that when someone was sick or passed on, someone would always tell you not to cry and be strong. It's funny now how I see that's really wrong to do. How else can you get through things without letting your emotions out. Now I feel that even as an adult, we can cry once and awhile if things are really effecting our lives.
Hey ran into your blog today. Just wanted to tell you that your blog kind of helped me today.
My father has cancer right now too (very agressive bladder cancer) and today I'm feeling a bit like your sister.
Just wanted to let you know somehow it helped.
so thanks.
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