Camila - 2 months

To my sweet, little Camila –

You are 2 months old. You just turned 11 weeks today to be exact.  It’s hard to believe that it was two months ago that you were refusing to leave mommy’s womb. It’s also hard to imagine what life was like before you were in it. Ever since you came into this world, you definitely want to make your place known within our little family. You are a feisty little thing with a loud voice. It’s funny how your daddy and I forgot what it was like those first few weeks with Abbie. He claims that you cry a lot more than she did. I may have been in denial at first and I simply wanted to protect you and not compare but I think your daddy is right. Although it’s definitely getting better now, you did cry a lot in the first few weeks. If you were awake, you were crying. There were so many days when I would get so overwhelmed and let my own tears fall. But your daddy was always there to pick me back up. I could have never survived without him.

 Shortly after you were born, we found out you were tongue-tied and got your little frenulum snipped with an ENT. We both cried. Even after that, breastfeeding was difficult for us, especially when you started spitting up so much so I became what you call an “exclusive pumper.” You only have breast milk that I pump for you through a bottle. That started at about 2 weeks and we’ve been doing it ever since. You were diagnosed with reflux but I think the medications you’re on are finally helping you. You are definitely awake more now throughout the day and we find you smiling so much. It’s amazing and the best thing ever.

At 11 weeks, you still wake at least once a night to feed. However you did take me by surprise last night and waited 7 1/2 hours in between feedings! I’m still hoping you begin sleeping through the night soon consistently. Come on baby girl…you can do it. But if you can’t, it’s ok. I know our middle of the night feedings won’t last forever and I should cherish those quiet moments we have together.

You definitely resemble your sister a lot when she was your age but at the same time, you are your own person and look very different too. You love it when Abbie is in your face…you smile at her every time. It melts my heart. It both brings me so much joy and breaks my heart that you're already losing your "newborn" look. I love it because it means you're growing so much but it breaks my heart because it's a reminder to me that you won't be a baby forever. 

I always wanted to be a mother. I just never thought my life would be so blessed to have 2 little girls. I am being entrusted with your lives and for that, I am honored. You have completed our family Camila. We are forever grateful. We love you so much. I am so excited to see how your personality is going to develop and even more excited to see you start to interact with your sister more. Happy 2 months my littlest love.